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Fandom is focus. Fandom is obsession. Fandom is insatiable consumption. Fandom is sitting for hours in front of a TV screen a movie screen a computer screen with a comic book a novel on your lap. Fandom is eyestrain and carpal tunnel syndrome and not enough exercise and staying up way, way past your bedtime.

Fandom is people you don’t tell your mother you’re meeting. Fandom is people in the closet, people out and proud, people in costumes, people in T-shirts with slogans only fifty others would understand. Fandom is a loud dinner conversation scaring the waiter and every table nearby.

Fandom is you in Germany and me in the US and him in Australia and her in Japan. Fandom is a sofabed in New York, a roadtrip to Oxnard, a friend behind a face in London. Fandom talks past timezones and accents and backgrounds. Fandom is conversation. Communication. Contact.

Fandom is drama. Fandom is melodrama. Fandom is high school. Fandom is Snacky’s law and Godwin’s law and Murphy’s law. Fandom is smarter than you. Fandom is stupider than you. Fandom is five arguments over and over and over again. Fandom is the first time you’ve ever had them.

Fandom is female. Fandom is male. Fandom lets female play at being male. Fandom bends gender, straight, gay, prude, promiscuous. Fandom is fantasy. Fandom doesn’t care about norms or taboos or boundaries. Fandom cares too much about norms and taboos and boundaries. Fandom is not real life. Fandom is closer than real life. Fandom knows what you’re really like in the bedroom. Fandom is how you would never, could never be in the bedroom.

Fandom is shipping, never shipping, het, slash, gen, none of the above, more than the above. Fandom is love for characters you didn’t create. Fandom is recreating the characters you didn’t create. Fandom is appropriation, subversion, dissention. Fandom is adoration, extrapolation, imitation. Fandom is dissection, criticism, interpretation. Fandom is changing, experimenting, attempting.

Fandom is creating. Fandom is drawing, painting, vidding: nine seasons in four minutes of love. Fandom is words, language, authoring. Fandom is essays, stories, betas, parodies, filks, zines, usenet posts, blog posts, message board posts, emails, chats, petitions, wank, concrit, feedback, recs. Fandom is writing for the first time since you were twelve. Fandom is finally calling yourself a writer.

Fandom is signal and response. Fandom is a stranger moving you to tears, anger, laughter. Fandom is you moving a stranger to speak.

Fandom is distraction. Fandom is endangering your job, your grades, your relationships, your bank account. Fandom gets no work done. Fandom is too much work. Fandom was/is just a phase. Fandom could never be just a phase. Fandom is where you found a friend, a sister, a kindred spirit. Fandom is where you found a talent, a love, a reason.

Fandom is where you found yourself.

(via mariahgem)
karinahastinyteeth

50 Questions You've Never Been Asked

  • 1. What's your favorite candle scent?
  • 2. What female celebrity do you wish was your sister?
  • 3. What male celebrity do you wish was your brother?
  • 4. How old do you think you'll be when you get married?
  • 5. Do you know a hoarder?
  • 6. Can you do a split?
  • 7. How old were you when you learned how to ride a bike?
  • 8. How many oceans have you swam in?
  • 9. How many countries have you been to?
  • 10. Is anyone in your family in the army?
  • 11. What would you name your daughter if you had one?
  • 12. What would you name your son if you had one?
  • 13. What's the worst grade you got on a test?
  • 14. What was your favorite TV show when you were a child?
  • 15. What did you dress up as on Halloween when you were eight?
  • 16. Have you read any of the Harry Potter, Hunger Games or Twilight series?
  • 17. Would you rather have an American accent or a British accent?
  • 18. Did your mother go to college?
  • 19. Are your grandparents still married?
  • 20. Have you ever taken karate lessons?
  • 21. Do you know who Kermit the frog is?
  • 22. What's the first amusement park you've been to?
  • 23. What language, besides your native language, would you like to be fluent in?
  • 24. Do you spell the color as grey or gray?
  • 25. Is your father bald?
  • 26. Do you know triplets?
  • 27. Do you prefer Titanic or The Notebook?
  • 28. Have you ever had Indian food?
  • 29. What's the name of your favorite restaurant?
  • 30. Have you ever been to Olive Garden?
  • 31. Do you belong to any warehouse stores (Costco, BJ's, etc.)?
  • 32. What would your parents have named you if you were the opposite gender?
  • 33. If you have a nickname, what is it?
  • 34. Who's your favorite person in the world?
  • 35. Would you rather live in a rural area or in the suburbs?
  • 36. Can you whistle?
  • 37. Do you sleep with a nightlight?
  • 38. Do you eat breakfast every morning?
  • 39. Do you take any pills or medication daily?
  • 40. What medical conditions do you have?
  • 41. How many times have you been to the hospital?
  • 42. Have you ever seen Finding Nemo?
  • 43. Where do you buy your jeans?
  • 44. What's the last compliment you got?
  • 45. Do you usually remember your dreams in the morning?
  • 46. What flavor tea do you enjoy?
  • 47. How many pairs of shoes do you currently own?
  • 48. What religion will you raise your children to practice?
  • 49. How old were you when you found out that Santa wasn't real?
  • 50. Why do you have a tumblr?